One Of Those Days

Well today was one of those days.

                I woke up late and it kind of started the whole day off bad. So I felt like I was playing catch up all day long. Chris hasn’t paid his child support at all this month. When I contacted him he told me he started a new job. So I contacted DCS to see if this was true, they informed me that if this was the case it could be a month to two months before I see anymore child support. This kind of fucked me over seeing as I have bills that need to be paid and more importantly things Demetri needs. So I turned to my old DSHS case worker who helped me out so much. (btw.  DSHS worker don’t get the credit they should!) She told me to come down and reapply for TANF, which if you don’t know is the aid the state now gives you to, this could be cash help, food help, medical, childcare. I went off it when I started getting child support. I honestly don’t feel guilty at all for using state aid. They helped me when I needed it most. They helped me pay for school so I can support Demetri all on my own, without ever having to depend on a man again. Plus MY tax dollars went to those programs, they are there to use.

                What pisses me off is when you see the girls that give us a bad name. The girls that are doing just what it takes to get that monthly check.  I, on the other hand was doing whatever they asked me to do, as long as they would pay for school. As soon as I had another income I asked to be taken off the program. I still get food stamps, which helps a lot and right now I get medical.

                Okay that was a rant, sorry. Back to applying for TANF. After I filled out all the paper work. My case manager explained that I could use a new program and not having to use up my TANF (Medical, Food, or Cash) months, which you only get 1 year of school services and 60 months total services in your life time. There was a grant type program I could use that will help me pay my bills. Only downside is if ever have to use the Cash-TANF again, I have to pay back the entire grant. But my plan is to be making enough money after I graduate with an degree in Administrative Management, a Certificate in Administrative Assistant, and a Certificate in Project Planning and Management; so that I never have to go back on state aid.

                So that possible nightmare may have been dealt with. I should get a check in a few days that will give me enough to pay my bills for 3 months. As long as I continue to keep a high GPA in school and keep up my end of the deal.

                Speaking of GPA, I got my grades in for last quarter. I got two 4.0’s and a 3.7! So my total GPA is now 3.87 (Damn 10 key class!).  My goal is to graduate with a GPA above 3.5. I also sat down and planned out my classes until graduation. I should finish school in the Spring of 2012. Also if everything stays good on the Internship front, I will have a job when I graduate.

                But all that being said… I had to miss most of my day today at work dealing with all this. So I ended up at work until 5pm. Which I HATE! I like being at home when Demetri gets home. I’m not here when he gets up in the morning so I like to be the one to take him off the school van.  I did get home in time to sit down to dinner so that is a good part.

                I want to end this on a positive note. So here is a new list.

Times I’m Reminded I Still Have Friends:

When you hear I need a hotel room for PAX and jump up to help.

When I get a chat room full of *Hugs*

When you notice I don’t have make-up on, and ask if I’m okay.

When you take the computer out of my hands and tell me to take a shot.

When you run into my office and yell “Dance Party!”

When you offer to beat up who ever made me cry.

When you tell me to sit down, close my eyes, and just breath.

When you remind me of the view of Puget Sound I have from my office.

When you tell me to just smile and look at that baby picture on my desk.